All by myself…♪♫
October 21, 2010
I can’t help but feel really lonely sometimes. I have plenty on my plate, but my mind is persistent in its constant thinking about Mike. What is he doing right now? When will be the next time I see him? How long has it been since the last time I’ve seen him? How much longer will it be until we don’t have to do long distance anymore? In short, this LDR is giving me a lot of anxiety. Separation anxiety.
Living abroad with him won’t be a problem, as far as I see. Surely I will miss my family, but having lived away from them for five and a half years and never really having experienced the kind of anxiety I feel when I’m away from Mike, I think I will be okay. I love my family, but Mike is my other half. And being away from your other half feels physically painful. I say physically and not ~almost~ physically because sometimes my heart really does feel off-balance and sad. “Sometimes,” as of recent however, is an understatement.
This sounds really gooey. I know: gross.
Anyway, the answer to one of my questions I have: When will I next see Michael? And the answer is: Next week!!
I also have registered to take the GRE in November, so I have a lot to study, as well as a lot to research (which schools I want to apply to).
That’s all for now. I probably really should start writing in this thing more often…
