Gloomy

Today I feel a little gloomy. My dad is about to leave for a week on a business trip, I feel overwhelmed with my applications, and there’s so much to be done around the house. Then this evening I received a call from my cousin Andy telling me that my other cousin Ben had been severely beaten. They think he’s going to be okay and he’s showing promising signs of recovery. At times like these it’s hard to count your blessings and be thankful for what you have instead of being angry.

At least maybe for me it is.

December

It’s December and I can’t believe it. 2010 was a great year for me, and a tinge of sadness overcomes me because I don’t want all the goodness to be over. Of course, this fear is irrational. There’s no telling what 2011 will bring. I just make sure to say my prayers everyday and thank God for what I have.

I’ve taken the GRE, and I’m so happy it’s out of the way. I was very happy with my score, and now the grueling application process begins…

Mike left today from his 8-day visit. I’m not that sad because I’ll be seeing him for New Year’s, and then hopefully in February for his birthday. I really enjoyed him being here.

Next year is going to bring many changes, and I hope they’re all good and reap good things. I could use only good things for a while…

Tonight I talked to Christyna for about an hour, then watched “Underworld” with my dad. All day today I’d been working on my applications, and then I decided to wash my little Lulu because she was way overdue. I washed Daisy yesterday, so it was only right that I wash Luna today.

The weather is starting to cool to the point of where I make sure that I put Kitty in the garage at night. It feels nice and crisp outside.

I’m going to do my best to make the next month as stress-free as possible as I apply to these grad programs. Wish me luck!

get your beat on

I don’t know what it is lately, but I’ve just been wanting to dance (and I have been, haha). That is all.

All by myself…♪♫

I can’t help but feel really lonely sometimes. I have plenty on my plate, but my mind is persistent in its constant thinking about Mike. What is he doing right now? When will be the next time I see him? How long has it been since the last time I’ve seen him? How much longer will it be until we don’t have to do long distance anymore? In short, this LDR is giving me a lot of anxiety. Separation anxiety.

Living abroad with him won’t be a problem, as far as I see. Surely I will miss my family, but having lived away from them for five and a half years and never really having experienced the kind of anxiety I feel when I’m away from Mike, I think I will be okay. I love my family, but Mike is my other half. And being away from your other half feels physically painful. I say physically and not ~almost~ physically because sometimes my heart really does feel off-balance and sad. “Sometimes,” as of recent however, is an understatement.

This sounds really gooey. I know: gross.

Anyway, the answer to one of my questions I have: When will I next see Michael? And the answer is: Next week!!

I also have registered to take the GRE in November, so I have a lot to study, as well as a lot to research (which schools I want to apply to).

That’s all for now. I probably really should start writing in this thing more often…

Inception opinion

I haven’t written in this blog for quite some time now, but I just came back from watching Inception- so why not write about it?

I think the only reason why I was with the movie the entire time (and didn’t really get lost), is because after everyone telling me they’d need to see it a second time to fully understand it, I made sure to pay SUPER close attention!!

I love Leonardo di Caprio, Ellen Page was beautiful, and I think she’s highly talented. The role of “Mal” was properly cast- a striking, yet maniacal, look in that lady actress (when she wants herself to be), and one of the best roles I’ve ever seen Joseph Gordon-Levitt in. Cillian Murphy did a brilliant job, and his cheekbones were more defined than ever. (In a good way). He definitely looked the most handsome I have ever seen him.

The movie was the first of its kind, and for that reason I won’t do you the disfavor of going into much detail. BUT the special effects were so alluring, exciting, original.

While I don’t personally think this is Leonardo di Caprio’s best acting performance, will the Academy PLEASE, PLEASE stand up?! Honestly, he should have won his FIRST movie, “What’s Eating Gilbert Grape?” but such is his luck that he’s not as lucky as, hmm, say Gabourey Sidibe, star of “Precious.”

C’est la vie, and as my bosses say, “it is what it is.”

I just hope Leo knows that he’s better than half the “actors” who walk off that stage with a political prize, and that most people think so as well. They’re just doing the same thing that they did to Martin Scorsese, only in my opinion, di Caprio is being way more overlooked than his buddy director was.

carpe diem

Days that set you back can be turned into motivation to gain momentum and move forward and be productive the following several days in a row.

mixed feelings

This semester is going to whiz by so fast. I’m excited, scared, happy, and sad about it all at once.

all in a day

I watched the rest of the second half of the Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring tonight with my parents. Now I’m watching the second half all over again, this time with the actors’ commentary. (HAHA)

I thought I’d write today because it’s been a few days since I’ve written. Not much has happened, although today I was rather productive. I woke up early (9:30=early?), then went to the living room couch and fell asleep for another hour and a half. Then I woke up again, ate breakfast, and started my day. I went outside and started to pull weeds growing in the grass– I really want to get rid of a large portion of them before my return to Orlando. After, I bathed Daisy (I bathed Luna yesterday).

The latter half of the day I worked on sanding a chair so that it can later be stained and glossed over to match the furniture in our house. Our neighbor’s two granddaughters came over and helped me sand the chair, all the while ripping the strips I had cut because they were applying too much pressure to the see-saw like strokes that I demonstrated. My sister had left some green nail polish lying around, so the girls wanted to paint their nails (of course). The older one, 9, ended up spilling the polish on the garage floor, and the younger one, about 6 years old, was consistently restless. I was relieved when my dad came home from work as he helped me entertain the girls.

Much to my surprise, they were determined to play this game: Let’s-go-around-the-house-and-guess-which-things-are-antiques-and-which-are-not. I asked myself, “For real?” LOL The older one was really into it, and she was really good too. It also proved another purpose in that I learned a lot about my dad’s antiques, and I stood corrected about a couple of items in my house that I had always believed to be antiques. Not a bad game to play, Molly, not a bad game at all..

When we sat down for dinner, the little one had found Daisy’s collar in the bathroom, (since I had taken it off to wash her), and she decided to latch it around her neck and act, yes, as a puppy. (1- Daisy’s not a puppy anymore, and 2- yes, Daisy’s collar actually fit around Lexi’s little neck).

Needless to say, for dinner she was quite hyper, and proceeded to stab her rice with her fork, poke her fingers in her food, and lick her milk repeatedly from her glass. It was an interesting night. The most stress came when they found my beloved Russian Matryoshka dolls and wanted to take them apart and then put them back together– in the fastest time possible.

I wonder if there’s anything to say from the fact that all the while the girls were here and touching, poking, and lifting all our antiques or belongings, I winced and freaked out more often than my dad. Maybe I just need to relax..

b0red

I’m in Orlando right now, kicking stones (no, not literally), bored inside my sister’s new house. She has the car, I am car-less, I can’t go anywhere. I’m thinking maybe I should make myself useful and help her clean this room, since she just moved in yesterday. This house has more potential than I’ve given it credit for in the past. I’m surprised with myself with how excited I am for my sis and her new living arrangement.

I have so much coming up ahead of me. I hope I can make some important life decisions in the next five months about what I’ll be doing for the next five years with a wise and insightful frame of mind. Whatever I do, I hope I’m happy and that I make a lot of money and that I don’t have any regrets. HAHA -doesn’t everyone?

This has been a really good summer for me. A relaxing one, a clearing-of-the-mind one, and a friends and family-reuniting one.

I still have SO much to learn about life, I can’t wait.

I should use this blog not only as an outlet to talk about my everyday events, but maybe also as a “counseling session” of sorts to talk (er, write) out my thought processes on where I see myself going in life.

Despite years of rejecting people’s suggestions that I would make a really good teacher, I’ve really been thinking about perhaps teaching for a little bit (but definitely not as a lifelong career). Either history, government, or social studies of some sort at a middle or high school level, or perhaps world geography at any level.

Maybe I could teach English in a foreign country, i.e. Spain, and in turn learn the language to a completely proficient level.

I see myself also working at a consulate or embassy, or in some way representing the United States for all its glory amidst all its ugliness. I love my country more than I ever have, and I want to help make it a better place. I want to be a part of the movement that falsifies this pathetic stereotype of the fat, blissfully ignorant, doesn’t-know-when-to-stop-consuming American. Ugh, PLEASE PEOPLE– CONSERVE!!

I am going to teach my future kids to never run the water while brushing their teeth (no need!), turn lights off when they’re not being used, recycle, buy and eat only as much as they need, not run the shower 5 minutes before getting in to “warm it up” (that’s nonsense), learn to appreciate exercise and being fit and healthy, and just teach them how to be globally-conscientious environmentalists.

Ok my sister is going to feed me now.

the beach

My neck hurts right now. For the past half hour I picked up the violin for the first time in probably at least an entire year. It felt good to pick it up again, as well as nostalgic. Today I went to the beach with my cousins and Tia Chila and Tio Carlos. I had a great time.

I love the beach, but I hate the nuisance that is sand.

I think I’ll update when I’m feeling more creative.